A Long Time Coming

This post has been a LONG time coming.  Last week, we celebrated the twins first birthday.  I feel like shouting “WE MADE IT!” from the highest mountaintop.  In the same way though, it is bittersweet to think that each new step my babies take is one of independence and the beginning of their own life journeys.  It has been an amazing year watching them transform from these little needy lumps (don’t judge – that’s basically what they were), to these incredible tiny people with their own ideas and true emotions.

While our year seems to have gone so slowly in some ways, it’s flashed past in others.  One of the biggest sunrises for me is my own personal growth within this past year.  I’ve gone from a perfectionist with a major need for control, to a … … … person who really misses perfection and still struggles with these feelings of being “out of control.”  Needless to say I have lots of room to grow!  And despite my mother spending the best part of a year with us (I just couldn’t let her go until she’d been here a whole nine months), I can hang my hat on the past four months of getting through each day with my kiddos and finding a strength that I didn’t know I had.

Sure, there were moments of frustration and feelings of being overwhelmed.  But they are so overshadowed by the total bliss of feeling my babes unconditional love, watching their successes, and seeing their twin bond really begin to blossom.  They are such cool little people and I am so fantastically blessed to be their Mama.

As we begin our second year as a family, we also cross into a “New Year.”  One of my resolutions has been a recommitting to my blog in order to capture these moments for my kids, to connect with other moms, and share our experiences.  In the past months there have been so many things I’ve WISHED I could have blogged about, but they seemed so silly and the hurdle of writing too great.  A fresh start is surely in order.  It’s so easy to focus on the time lost between posts, that the black hole of absence begins to swallow your potential posts.  I may have missed recording some of our time, but instead I was busy living it.  Better late than never though right? While there’s lots of work ahead to “restart” My Tales with Two, I’m looking forward to the challenge.